Orajel is your best friend when its been four days after what is considered a huge hit of mandy for your body size.
Also somehow lost ten pounds and I wasn’t actually trying. :x
Tell me you love me or come back to haunt me …
… Nobody said it was easy, nobody said it would be so hard
Well since I haven’t have a post in a while, I’ll just post what I wrote in my diary Wednesday morning:
“Jan 23 - morning
I saw him.
I know I’m not over him.
What we had.
What I did.
I saw him but pretended I didn’t. He did
I felt the dagger again.
It hurts just as much as it did back then.
God did it hurt more so than back then.
I went straight for the bathroom.
I felt like throwing up. I couldn’t breathe. I’m disgusted at myself. My days for the rest of the semester will be like this. Every morning.
Fuck me.”
So yeah, started off the semester with a panic attack. After classes were over Wednesday I drank a shot of whiskey and threw up at noon. What fun. :|
